january. 2012. whoa.

Is today really January 19, 2012? I honestly wouldn't believe it if I hadn't seen it 17,000 times today on my phone, on facebook, on the computer, at work. They all seem to believe that is the correct date so I guess I shall as well. 2012.
If you would have sat me down 5 years ago and told me what my life would be like on January 19, 2012, I wouldn't have thought it could be my future. I never would have chose this life. Not in a million years. I wouldn't have chosen the trials, the speed bumps, the mistakes, the marital status (23 and not married?!?! I would have keeled over dead). But I never would have guessed the strength, the knowledge, the experience, the endurance I've earned through all the hard times I've given myself. But now that I'm here, I have no regrets and I wouldn't change a thing.
There's a reason someone once said "If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans" and everyone on the world wide web has repeated it. It's almost comical the things we think are such a life guarantee, that we expect for ourselves to be rewarded with in life. Everything in life is a blessing. You woke up this morning, pay back the favor by being the best you you know how to be.
I'm obsessive. I'm a planner. I'm a control freak. I'm a princess. I'm in love. I'm nuts. I'm a perfectionist. I'm a gemini. Basically, I'm a girl (obvs). But I have to learn to put that all aside and be a daughter of God who was brought here for a reason, for a lot of reasons. Marjorie Hinckley said "We women have a lot to learn about simplifying our lives. We have to decide what is important and then move along at a pace that is comfortable for us. We have to develop the maturity to stop trying to prove something. We have to learn to be content with what we are."

I'm not in control of everything that happens but I'm in control of what my experiences have taught me. My emotions and the actions that follow are my choice and my choice alone. I want to make the best ones that will benefit me and those around me everyday. I need to be a better me.

Love life and see good days.