january. 2012. whoa.

Is today really January 19, 2012? I honestly wouldn't believe it if I hadn't seen it 17,000 times today on my phone, on facebook, on the computer, at work. They all seem to believe that is the correct date so I guess I shall as well. 2012.
If you would have sat me down 5 years ago and told me what my life would be like on January 19, 2012, I wouldn't have thought it could be my future. I never would have chose this life. Not in a million years. I wouldn't have chosen the trials, the speed bumps, the mistakes, the marital status (23 and not married?!?! I would have keeled over dead). But I never would have guessed the strength, the knowledge, the experience, the endurance I've earned through all the hard times I've given myself. But now that I'm here, I have no regrets and I wouldn't change a thing.
There's a reason someone once said "If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans" and everyone on the world wide web has repeated it. It's almost comical the things we think are such a life guarantee, that we expect for ourselves to be rewarded with in life. Everything in life is a blessing. You woke up this morning, pay back the favor by being the best you you know how to be.
I'm obsessive. I'm a planner. I'm a control freak. I'm a princess. I'm in love. I'm nuts. I'm a perfectionist. I'm a gemini. Basically, I'm a girl (obvs). But I have to learn to put that all aside and be a daughter of God who was brought here for a reason, for a lot of reasons. Marjorie Hinckley said "We women have a lot to learn about simplifying our lives. We have to decide what is important and then move along at a pace that is comfortable for us. We have to develop the maturity to stop trying to prove something. We have to learn to be content with what we are."

I'm not in control of everything that happens but I'm in control of what my experiences have taught me. My emotions and the actions that follow are my choice and my choice alone. I want to make the best ones that will benefit me and those around me everyday. I need to be a better me.

Love life and see good days.

November 3rd

Technically, it's the 4th but I haven't gone to bed yet...so it's still the 3rd to me. :)
Today I'm grateful for great friends.
To be honest, family is number one. Always. But I'm 23, I live with roommates, I have a full-time job, and the boyfriend's job adds many more people to the equation. I'm surrounded by my peers, my friends 87% of my life right now. It's a good thing they're so amazing. I know I always have someone there to count on no matter the circumstance, or hour.
I have people to listen, to get my mind off things, to shop with, to craft together, to teach me, to cry with. I'm so blessed to be surrounded by so many wonderful people that I'm so honored to call my friends.

November 2nd

Today I'm grateful for my childhood.
Cousins.
Barbies.
Sisters.
Rice pudding.
Riverdale.
Camping.
As children, we have little knowledge of the real world and growing up. We live in the moment and into the fantasies we created for ourselves.
My childhood was full of so many amazing times and amazing people. I cherish every moment I can remember and that made me who I am today.

Thankvember begins...

In an effort to keep a more regular cyber record of my life's happenings for the umpteenth time this decade...I have come up with Thankvember. Life gets so crazy sometimes and we live in such a self-centered world, it's sometimes hard to stay positive and remember how many blessings we are given everyday. This is an effort to blog everyday for the whole month a November, reminding myself of the small things that make a great life.

November 1st:
Today I'm grateful for my job.
Today I was reminded that working is definitely not anyone's favorite activity. Unless you're a billionaire and you work for fun. There are so many people that work jobs they hate, jobs they're over-qualified for, and search for any available job. I'm so blessed to have a job I love going to (almost) everyday where I'm surrounded by so many friends and a great environment. It's not the best place in the world, it's where I want to be for the rest of my life, but it's perfect for me today.

sunday blues

this term, 'sunday blues.' is pretty common around the rogers' household. as a college drop out and currently employed server, it's a phrase not commonly coined by this chick. but today, i've got them sunday blues. for the first time in months, i have to work monday morning [insert tears]. in an effort to cheer myself up, i thought i would recap this great weekend that just happened.
after a let down change of plans, a weekend that was supposed to be spent driving to the big saint geezy was now to be spent finding the most entertaining, time consuming activities in cv. thought at first to be a challenge, i took on that challenge and fully conquered it. yay me.
thursday night: bees game. the first of many hopefully. the last time i went to a bees/buzz game i think i had diaper rash.
friday: sleeping in until 12, i wasn't mad. boutique shopping in logan (yes, this happened: bella me, and violet hill are a little out of place around these parts but so great) with a few of my favorite ladies. ever been attacked by box elder bugs at 2 am and had to sleep in your friend's bed with said friend plus one when the spouse is out of town? true story. attacked.
saturday: no sleeping in :( but for a greater cause: boating at willard with the veibells and zundels. two great families that have taken me in as one of their own. i can't remember the last time i went tubing but i know for a fact that i definitely wasn't as sore the next day as i am today. ouch, i'm getting too old. first complete grilling adventure finished off with a new recipe: pink lemonade cupcakes.
sunday: sleeping in and laying in bed to watch 3 episodes of bridezillas with celeste. a minor incident of me being a bad friend did occur and put a slight damper on the weekend but i definitely learned my lesson. dinner with my rogers' family. they're are among the greatest people i've ever met. evening walk with jk and lissi lou. loved every second of my extended weekend...

dear monday,
i've been well-prepared. let the games begin.
love, me.